Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Prison Writing Workshop



Eleven ravens roost
in a winter cottonwood
wind slices through
my jacket as the lock
snaps shut
fingers strain at the weight
of papers and books
and pens and notepads
and other dangerous characters
as a man lights his cigarette
on an electrical coil
wired to a steel post
a bare grey stump
bleaches in the sun
mute now
no breeze can stir the leaves
it used to offer as shade
and here in this
clear unforgiving
light
no one
can hide or run
but a man can refuse
to surrender his heart 
to the hungry 
razor wire

square one of
a new year
a blank page waits
for the story
that will mark the passing
of steps in hopeless time
snow shimmers on the mountain
far beyond the confining wire
one by one the ravens
lift into the wind and are carried
on the words
thrown down like dice
in this the last and
only chance to
harvest new truths
born of a
heart betting against
the odds
 

The Madman at the Casino Gas Station

He comes on fumes
And flames
Of wild hair
A matted corona
Around his dark face
And blazing eyes.
He mutters about wanting
Change
And the apocalypse
Drills into me with his gaze
All I want is some air
And I don’t mean to breathe.
My tire is going flat
On this long cold desert road
And there is nothing
And brother
I mean nothing
Between
Albuquerque and Grants
That can help me
Except this gleaming
Tower of money changers
This monumental golden calf
Of games and hustle
A local girl
Dressed to arouse
In hip tight skirt nametag company logo
Stiletto heels
Looks down
Black hair falls over her eyes
Says the only air hose
In the place is broken
That she isn't paid to care about
Necessary things like whether
Or not the trees grow
Or ravens soar
Or travelers have air
She asks if I want to buy
Some shares in the company
To join her on the path to
Towering riches
Sure thing she says
Hopefully
Embarrassed
As I push the thick bullet-proof
Plexiglass door open and step back
Into the cold sun
Indifferent sky
The madman smiles
His eyes gleam
He needs nothing
Sees God in everything
As monster trucks roar by
Safe from the biting wind

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

The Red Pickup (Shameless Nostalgia)

            Thirty years ago that pick-up set me back a hundred bucks, plus another eight dollars a piece for used front tires.
            “Course they’re not much good if you’re gonna drive across the desert or anything,” the tire salesman joked, winking at the cleverness of his hyperbole. 
             “No. Like I’m ever gonna do anything like that,” I deferred, lying. 
             In fact, I planned to drive it from Wisconsin to California, through the Rocky Mountains and across the Mojave, Sonoran, and Chihuahua Deserts, in winter.

            To the unloving eye it was what we called butt ugly -- rust rotted floors that let cold November air chill our feet, legs, and nose despite warm boots, long underwear, and ski gloves -- dented hub caps, cancerous quarter panels.  But I patched the rust holes, changed the oil, and bolted a ski rack to the roof.  My weakness for beauty shone through in my need to polish the hood, with its rounded lines and last area of remaining intact paint, to a brilliant, glossy red that reflected the sky and passing trees.
            With adolescent flair for the dramatic, I left home after dark and drove through the night and the next day to Colorado with stops for gas, hashed browns, and hitch-hikers. The tips of my skis danced lightly in the wind, happy to be pointed west.  They had cost three times as much as the truck.
            The hood of the truck lost some of its sheen as the winter wore on and I wandered from job to job, ski area to ski area. But that truck started the night I slept out under the stars, waking to snow and frozen fingers. It held corners around mountain ridges where a slide would have sent us both into a snowy oblivion. It made it to the Grand Canyon and Las Vegas. I was proud to have a valet park it when I walked into the MGM Grand Hotel wearing my dusty blue jeans. That truck carried me and a family of four back across the plains.  We wrapped up in a sleeping bag and tent in the bed of the truck to stay warm through a Kansas ice storm.
            It held together until I got home.  
            That night, the door swung loose, a tail pipe fell off and one of the tires blew out.
            I guess the truck knew I had given up on the road for a while, and needed to sell it. I unbolted the rack, fixed the tire, door, and tailpipe, polished the hood so that the world shown back in beautiful, red, fisheye distortion, and sold her for tuition.
            That truck is probably keeping company with other old trucks in some Wisconsin junk yard, but I bet the hood still shines, keeping track of the seasons and the lost miles of memory.