Monday, March 25, 2019

When the Waters Recede in Tucson


 
           It is Sunday night in our little mesquite bosque. I grab a Key Lime soda from the fridge and find a chair on the porch next to Megan. We can hear the highway up the hill behind the house but the light of the setting sun and the breeze off the mountains – a breeze still carrying the chill of last night’s snow – quiets the drone of traffic.
No gauzy film, billboard, corporate-sponsored dreamscape, or media hype could capture this subtle shift of the season, this last, cool, goodbye kiss of springtime that spills over and through us as we sip drinks and make small talk.
Snowbirds, busy packing, worry what summer will do to the garden, hastily apply lip-gloss, and stow golf carts. More of the desert will be given to them next year, more water too. The lock snaps shut on the hasp. Doors close. Engines whine, then fade into the distance.
            The last of the snow runoff is withdrawing back to the high country. Clear water still runs over the sand at the foot of the mountains, but has disappeared just today here in the valley. I followed it upstream as the mouth of our winter creek retreated, growing silent, its piece said, overtaken by the thirsty sand.
            Shadows lengthen. Trees have gone opaque with blossom and leaf in this last week. I watch my wife read, study her crossed legs, and wonder how many times I will see her again in a light like this, a breeze like this, my shoes wet with the last drops of a vanishing desert river. Once more? Twice? Not more than a few, if any.
            The shadows overtake the light, and the sounds of the highway come down to us, no longer held at bay by the breeze. She gets up. It is too dark to read, and friends are coming over. I sit and listen for the sounds of coyotes, somewhere.

Saturday, April 8, 2017

Anachronism


The heart flutters
as hot as
it was
back in junior high
at the sight and curve
of her
thigh

It wants to sit
in some dark corner
of a grungy
bar
overrun with sports
screens
and shout
at her
anything that comes
up

But this is not the time
of life to be chasing
confused and intoxicated
infatuation
they say

That was then
this is
time to
sit back to
comb serenity
from the tangled
mess
of days of lust long gone

You see it there
mirage
so real you could drink it

On whom is this joke
this surprise
short circuit?
this taste of love
so sweet you might choke on it?


Saturday, October 1, 2016

Lotus Blossom


Not white exactly

But something between
Fluorescent green
And mustard
Yellow

It sits there
Growling
Formula One
Through and through
While its owner
Flirts with the barista

Each wheel has its
Own tire size
One way
No rotating to save
Money or time

Why he leaves it
Running
I don't
Know

Maybe he wants me
To jump in and drive
Away
To be off on a surprise
Visit
To the here and now
A place I never go

Maybe it never turns
Off
But is always
Watching

It doesn't
Flinch
When a passing
Raven
Shits
On the
Hood

Its shadow
Passing through
The strip mall
Like a ghost

The owner
Rubs out the fresh
Deposit
With his silk sleeve
And all is again
And forever
Right with this
World


Thursday, August 25, 2016

On Turning Sixty


The decade sounds ominous
Now "S"s as the "F"s
Recede in the rear view mirror

A curdling unease
Vague notions of hobbling
Canes, vanished virility

Creaky joints crimped digestion
And "sir" as the cashier
Rings up milk of magnesia

The mile marker slides
By the window of this
Passing train

A shade lowers a bit
To hide the harsh light

Tell me something
I don't know
That days have numbers

That fall and rise
The price set by how
They are spent

Short supply
Infuses illusion
With clarity

The forelock of time
Waits to be plucked
Love to be spoken

I am learning to
Take a deeper
Breath

A welcome shock
To the System

A sweet taste
Of creosote
Of hot chiles

Friday, August 5, 2016

Work


At the end of the day
At the end of a life
When the heavy lifting
Of providing
Is done
The real work remains

Beneath the clutter
Of complaint
Insult
And sting of being
Overlooked targeted misunderstood
You see it is not
About deserving or fair or redemption

You give up licking old wounds

You no longer wait to be saved
But begin the work of resurrecting yourself

You sharpen your gaze
And do not look away

You want your soul
More than fame or love or comfort

You remember the assignment given at birth

Your work is to desire that which endures
To step forward
With every tool
You have crafted from the stones
Of your questions
To meet the fear
Unlock the gate
The obstacle blocking you from
Your joy
Your grief
The thrill of your
Divine inheritance 

Thursday, October 29, 2015

Invocation (A Recipe)

List of Ingredients:

A ceramic mug
Filled with black coffee
A shot of espresso diffusing into the mix
Clock not yet cracking the whip
Of work
Thoughts not yet beholden to the business
Of running the world
On time

Sacred baseball cap set
Exactly right
According to Scripture
Phone tuned to confidential signal
Moment carved and stolen
From stone

An invitation
Sent
Through the slot aligned
By tumblers ordered to attention
Combination spun
A vault door  that swings open

Instructions:

When Promise sits there
A come hither
Smirk on her lips
Stir in your passion
While you can
Before she gets away

You will follow her because
She is burnt umber
Rotting leaves
The scent of gun powder
Pheasant shit mixed with
Plucked feathers

Give her
A broach
Wrapped in gold
Warm her by your fire
Hold her
Say yes
Lose yourself
Cut fear from the edges
Discard searching
And
Confusion

Open and pour in
Sweetness
Cry
Run ripe memory over the grater
Unlock your mind's tool shed
Simmer things you cannot
Throw away
Any more than you can operate without
Blood

Sling words down
Into a well
They will ricochet off the stone walls
Before splashing in the cold
Subterranean sea

Saute a moment
To write
Just write
No matter who gives a good
Goddamn

Salt liberally the song that wafts up out of the darkness
Separate the words that don't matter
Pull out the invocation

Surround the chords with
The melancholy notes
That turn the key
Open the valve

Let the grief drain
Free now
Down a river
Of light and
Smoke

Friday, August 28, 2015

Bees




They say the bees are in trouble
That flowers may soon be
Absent when attendance
On Earth is taken
That the red of tomatoes
The buxom purple of eggplants
The stain of boysenberry
Thimbleberry blackberry red rasping berries
Have numbered days

They say the bees are
Hungry lonely sick and
That they no longer dance.
We have given them too much of what
They don’t want
Taken away what little they need.
The handmaids of sex
The midwives of ovaries
The acolytes of nectar
Magic dust
Secret errands
Blossoming trysts
Serving pleasure to plants
Fleshy fruits to palates

It would be infinitely lonelier without
The bees the berries the flowers all that
Fertility

For now
A tree waits
Petals a riot of silken seduction
Open receptive engorged
Only for the lover 
The perfect lover